I have been working full-time since Sept 1, 2010. The pay is good as well as the location. The people, for the most part, are fun to work with. I have met a lot of people and have had busy and not so busy days. I am learning a lot about how small towns or towns in NH are run.
There are a couple of things that I need to say...I Don't Like To Work. I Don't Like To Be Away From My Family. I Miss Homeschooling Nick and Sam. I Wish I Could Stay Home To Be With Them. (how's that for being real?)
Nick asked me tonight when I can stay home. Oh how I wish it could be now. I had to tell him that if I didn't work, we would be very poor and that my paycheck helps to pay for the food, shelter and clothing for all of us. I am not sure if he understood, but I do know that he doesn't like me to work outside of the home either
I am exhausted trying to keep up the "happy-there is nothing wrong-positive" side while I am at work. When I get home I am cranky, tired and not being a very good mother to Nick and Sam. I am not sure how much longer I can keep this up.
I have been praying that we will be able to find a way for me to stay home. I feel the tug at my heart to stay home. I know that God has a plan for our family; I just wish I knew what the plan is.